Monday, October 12, 2009

Goodness, 14 weeks already!

Where did the last two weeks go?! I can't believe I wil be finished my 14th week tomorrow! It is still so unreal and unbelievable. I still don't feel like it has really set in that I have this precious little baby growing inside me... although, my pants are definitely telling me that this is quite real :)

My blood sugars really have been great. It was as though once I figured it all out in the beginning, things just have been going smoothly. I am not checking quite as often as I did in the beginning, but I am still on top of things... my fingers definitely appreciate it :)

I have 2 weeks until my next endocrinologist and my ob/gyn appointments and then 4 weeks until my next maternal-fetal specialist appointment, when we hopefully find out gender :) I am so anxious for them all. I think my every other week appointments were keeping me comfortable, making this feel so much more real, and they also helped me to know that the clock was actually ticking... but it has been 2 weeks since my last appointment and I am just so anxious for my next! (Never ever have I ever looked forward to doctor's appointments, but I guess things change ;)

I still question myself in my mind every time I go to say the magic works "I'm pregnant" and ask, "could I really be... am I really pregnant!?!" It is the most amazing thing to be able to say and each day is such a miracle. It's a day I never thought would happen and something I've wanted since the time I knew what a baby was!

We live in such amazing times. I mean, a little girl who was diagnosed with diabetes at age 9, who fought it almost to the death until age 25 with A1Cs of 13 and 14 and beyond...and who thought at this point not only would my life and body be in total shambles, but I knew no hope for a family existed... and here I am 14 weeks pregnant with an A1C of 6.0. Sure, I have gadgets galore hooked up to my body, but I love them, they gave me this new life and are helping to make all of my dreams come true!


Allison Blass said...

I don't know how I missed that you were pregnant but...


That's so awesome! It sounds like you're doing a great job. :-)

Laura said...

Glad all is still going so well Suzanne! I miss those exciting doctor appointments! Can't wait to hear if you're having a boy or a girl! So exciting!!!

~Suzanne~ said...

Thanks Allison! You probably missed it because of my lapse in blogs... :( But I was busy checking my blood sugar 25 times/day ;)

Laura, we can't wait either!! I think the next four weeks are just going to drag on... and then I just know my child will be as stubborn as me and won't cooperate ;)

Hope all is well with you both!!

MelissaBL said...

I so relate. Diagnosed at 10 in DKA. Spent teen years with A1c as high as 15s. Can't believe I'm now 30 (as of this last week) and 23 weeks pregnant with an A1c of 5.6. Isn't it all just amazing?

Scott K. Johnson said...

You are all wonderful examples for many out there who have lost hope. You are a living example that it can be done!

~Suzanne~ said...

Wow Melissa, sounds like we have a lot in common!! I am still in complete shock everyday that I got to this point... and I am still not quite sure how. God gives us humans amazing strength... we just have to be stubborn for our own good and fight for our own lives!

Scott- My endo tells me often that T1 women have this huge advantage over T1 men because we have the 'benefit' of having to fight for our babies by fighting for ourselves with this disease... Men never get that opportunity and so don't ever really know what they are capable of, and it is so true. I don't know that I could have ever done this 'on my own'.