Tuesday, September 29, 2009

12 Week Update

Gosh, I cannot believe I am 12 weeks today! The past couple of months have been an absolute whirlwind. I really never knew I could be this dedicated to my diabetes, ever. It truly is amazing the sacrifices you make when you know that your future child is depending on you making all the right decisions, all the time. I think it was one of my favorite Mommy with Diabetes Bloggers, Laura, who mentioned this same thing in a DiabetesSisters.org post when she was a pregnancy blogger, but she added on that it is a shame we don't value ourselves quite that much regardless of whether we are "with child".

My doctor asked me several weeks ago whether the cravings were making it hard for me, and I honestly told her that I have no cravings other than to make sure everything is perfect for this baby. That's all I want and it is what drives every thought right now.

I look back on where I started almost two years ago and am amazed. I can't help but get emotional (I know, pregnancy hormones!!) and think how much my life has changed. I am happier now than I ever thought possible. I am healthy, and well, and diabetes has not taken over my life... it's just become an important part of my life again but certainly has not taken me over.

I just hope others out there who are struggling know that you can do this, you just have to commit to it, and really really live it. It's hard, but I promise you, it is so worth it!

Friday, September 25, 2009

I'M PREGNANT!!! :)

Okay, so I know I have been totally missing in action, but there is a reason why!! I am pregnant. Yes, me!! I still can't believe it and I am still so very scared of what is to come, but am also taking in every moment and just loving it!

I will be 12 weeks on September 29th, which just so happens to fall on our 2nd Anniversary :) We found out very early on, at about 4 1/2 weeks, so I was able to make sure that my blood sugars, etc. were as perfect as could possibly be (easier said than done when your body is growing a precious baby ;)). I went to my endo the Tuesday after we found out with an A1C of 6.9 and six weeks later on this past Tuesday, it was all the way down to 6.0! My endo laughs at me each time he sees me because of the number of times I am checking my blood sugar, but my fingers will have to deal with it!

The first two days after I found out, I checked my blood sugar around 25 times each day!!! AND had my CGM in ;) I know, overkill, but like I said, I don't care!

I'd be lying if I said it was easy, especially in the beginning, but it is all so worth it. Every time my blood sugar would creep to 200, I would panic and start to cry and at first, I was having spikes without reason, so it was very difficult and so very stressful, but things have gotten better. I am still in the "going low" phase before the tripling of insulin phase and I am comfortable with how things are.

Anyway, I will definitely write more later, but I wanted to give my big announcement and let you all know that I am still here and I am doing so wonderfully!! I've missed you all and I am happy now that my secret is out!! :)